Well i have some good news, that might cheer you up. Deliah as left to come home to me yesterday. He should be here soon, and then you will see his little face.

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I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity

I don't suffer from insanity I enjoy every minute of it

If I wanted to hear a bunch on nagging, I’d have a sex change, and get married.
~Kiwidoll

Thank you, this is really wonderful to hear. However I am certain he will be a precious darling, thus

There are two more art commissions (also a Hikari...) I am waiting for in my attempt to grant myself a little joy in these stressful weeks. Thus perhaps I can show you soon something as well, not by my hand (it looks better this way, anyway) but based on my ideas...

At least I know that after the 21st the air shall be kinder to me, with just term paper, some corrections and one more exam to prepare for left... And "holidays".

My regards.

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Good luck with the exams.

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People fear and hate those they don't understand
~ k a l e i d o s c o p e ~

Thank you so much, it seems I had luck after all, at least I managed to pass the 2 exams I definitely required. Sadly I am still conquered by papers to be written, at the time as having a writing block, afresh...

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Hope you are doing well )

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^{I have never been wise.}

not really..., pressing university matters to solve (still, last one exam and sadly term paper, till the end of April the time I have... Hardly sufficient.)

...and last two evenings I have cried myself to sleep by virtue of my mother's new and glorious ideas of "what is right and best (for me)" - though all in all it is the same old scheme of taking the little stability/security there is from me, destroy any summer vacation (or I suppose further dance lessons) plans I may have had, once again severely underline how exceedingly "lazy" I am (heh?), anew nag on the fact I still speak with my father (though no financial support he provides)and eventually fail to comprehend her "best for me" is in reality just the excuse for violently defending her own position on yes "what is right to do as a mother". Though honestly I feel I do not require any further destruction of my nerves, psyche, sanity...

Sorry, I have not meant to rant about such to you, but it is the morning after and I probably feel the need to communicate the disaster... in hopes of what? I don't know, but exhaustion and... sickness do impend with my drive to answer you. At least I may say I can definitely make it to K. on one of the days, however I wonder how much free time may you have aside from the music? Anyway I would be truly glad to see your face and hear your voice. I also wonder what transportation plans do you have, for if still (which sadly I doubt) any freedom of choice I would love to invite you to mine...

I hope to answer you properly soon, I am sorry.

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I see. So it seems we are both in miserable state of mind.
I had such problems with my mother too, but some time ago it kind of calmed down. I think she allowed me to choose my own path only for me to see what my choices really are. And you know what? I hate to admit it, but if I listened her four years ago, I would have much less trouble, burden and chaos right now.
Nonetheless, I hope you can make it somehow. It may seem like a disaster, but some day it won't be like that. Some day...

This is awesome and makes me a bit lighter on the inside, when looking into future. Aside from the music, my time is my and it is infinite - it's my holiday, after all. I actually planned to stay 3-4 days. If you will have the freedom, I would love to be your guest?

Do not be! My first scary Exam Of Life is May the 4th. I doubt I will be able to write anything coherent until after this, too. *insane mode on*

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^{I have never been wise.}