At last. My bed, my table, my windows safely adorned by two layers of curtains... No further voyages envisioned for at last couple of months. Time to catch on instead. Studies, art, writing, obsessions. To play online version of a paper cut dolls game and listen to music.

Just like usual. Just a little boring entry to replace another even more boring one. Just one promise I hope to stand to: I wish to dedicate more time to art, and better art from now on [indeed a "what was I drawing, especially taking photos of syndrom..."]

Oh. And sorry for the lack of answers... And thank you so much to everyone who liked my attempts at art. I would feel guilty to spam your profile pages with "thank you for the +fav" comments, that is why please, "Thank you!" here instead.

how it feels to walk through pitch black floors of your faculty at two past midnight.

First of all it is scary, for the stairs you cannot see, and thus you feel around and then thankfully touch... and step for step crawl further down.

Then it is the fact you are dead tired and everything swims afore your eyes. Actually you stopped after just 6 hours of work for your eyes not capable of perceiving clear shapes anymore, and you can't wish to falsify the results. You can't.

Yet worst of all is the feeling you have to repeat the whole procedure the two next days, for you have a time limit for the video data analysis and thus almost no time left...

Summarising: I am in deep shit right now, but no time to lament any further, a presentation has to be prepared too.

Love to anyone who wishes for my love

tried to find scientifical information on puberty vocal change at rat pups? I did. A couple of minutes ago. Without much success so far. However I continue believe such may be a matter of utmost importance. For my term paper.

Exams at last in the past, I am nearing the deadline for the abovementioned tl;dr improvisation of doom. How luckily the new term already began, thus I continue scribbling the dates of presentations to be held

It is lovely outside, the almost but not quite rainy weather of deep greens and calm wind. I am almost counting hours till the pre-lecture walk time. Also till the amazing project "spending the night at university in order to somehow get myself to finish the video data analysis" -_-

Otherwise dance lessons are fun, I may further present the wonderful portrait Aeromachia did of my (character/alter ego) Hikari:



Till hopefully soon!

I attempt at merely stating the needed exams are passed, but work load still has to learn gentleness, and I to avert the disagreably untolerable slumbriness and general lack of productivity the depressive phases tend to evoke... Nonetheless was it not my life motto to make my path as stony as it may be. [Disclaimer: a person who insists on troubles.]

The conclusion: I am still not present, neither seen submissions nor journals lately, at latest middle of April (new term's begin) I shall be done (do or die philosophy)...

... and please bear with discussions started and still "on hold".

The loves, or just another meme. For the morning was sunny and I sleepy.

For the things I have been mainly engaged with were
a)uni related procrastination
b)imagining a modern day AU scenario in which Itachi was born blind.
c)and this night I dreamt not too pleasant thing about Lux, Alice and SiSi from ' novel (in progress) "Shades of evening". Not too pleasant especially for Lux. The setting been the grandmother's old flat, the windows again the doors and leading to a gloomy dangerous forest instead of the gloomy dangerous streets they usually are... Strange combination, I think I have taken the "relate to" thing to the whole new level. Especially since it is not that much of similarity after all.
d)listening to the album of my dreams. Sadly just one album the interpret was able to write this way afore the change. I wonder shall I be able to change one day as well.

To make this journal entry even more of private and confusing kind, a meme found at '

1st Love vs. Current Fave Meme

Books:

1st love - Mythology of Ancient Greece. I was 4-5 we bought the book after a visit to archaeological museum and I have instantly taken to it. A general favourite books from the childhood summary would look the following though: Myths and fairy tales, Lewis' "Chronicles of Narnia", A little princess“ by F.H. Burnett, „Lady Jane“ by C.V. Jamison. Further: Resat Nuri Güntekin's „Calikusu“ and C. Brontes „Jane Eyre“. All books about fine girls for a fine girl...

Current fav - The last book I read and held dear, in awe in wonderment overflown by feeling - Hermann Hesse' "Narzissus and Goldmund"


Movies:

1st love - My mother recently mentioned I adored Disney's "Little Mermaid" as a child. My personal guess would be one of Sowjet times music films, like the Russian version of the "The Three Musketeers" (the best in my humble opinion) or that New Year fairy tale "The magicians"... I have to add I did not watch TV much in those days. Nor do I now.

Current fav - BBC 1995 Pride and Prejudice ^^ The movie "marathon" for bad mood. The last impressive new addition to my DVD collection has been "Love me if you dare", a French film about difficult yet de facto everlasting love. In general I favour European and Asian films these days.

Songs:

1st love - Aria of Mr. X from Imre Kálmán's operetta "The Circus Princess" [link] . The Russian version. My mother played it on piano and I sung along. Still my favourite to sing along. The matter of sad loneliness, pride and love desired yet where it is?

Current fav - Сергей Калугин, "Nigredo". Divine music. The accentuation lies on "divine".

Manga:
1st love - not my first manga, but "Angel Sanctuary" of Kaori Yuki established the mangaka as precious to me. Even aside of my obvious fangirling over Sakuya

Current fav - I enjoy "Vampire Knight", I enjoyed "Naruto" and "Ludwig Kakumei" is struggling for the place of my very favourite. *in hopes for the sequel, ne Yuki-san?*

Anime:

1st love - historical : "Maya the Bee". However first conscious attempt at anime had been "Sailor Moon". At least two years of thoughtful engagement, my first fanart and fanfiction. A whole epoch in the life of a teenager.

Current fav - Difficult. "Code Geass" was impressive. "Escaflowne", "Elfen Lied"... The one I watched at least 4 times in cinema and at least as often at home: "Howl's moving castle".

Video Games:

1st love - the ninja turtles played at an acquaintance's game console...

Current fav - still between FF7 and "the Sims 2". Computer games have not a chance against day dreaming and the mandatory use of imagination.

Food:

1st love - My great-grandmother's self made noodles and my obligatory birthday fancy cake.

Current fav - salmon + salad, Granny Smith apples.

Manga/Anime/Novel/Cartoon Character:

1st love - Louis XIV of France as depicted in the novels of Alexandre Dumas the père.

Current fav love - Lu in his reincarnation of being an Itachi...

Feel free to answer yourself, if you feel like it...

P.S. My mood worsened drastically by having cut my fingers 3 times during the last half an hour in a pathetic attempt to eat some walnuts...